Age: 23
Heigh: 5`8``
Weight: 14stone 9lbs
Job: Sales - and it is very boring
Mood: Depressed
Status: In a relationship

Have you ever woken up one morning and just thought "my life is rubbish"? Well, I did! Recently I have been trying to lose weight, find a new job, try and trust my boyfriend after numerous "situations" I have found him in, none that can 100% prove anything but all look a little suspicious.

So, in a nutshell that is me.

Today things got a little more on top of me than usual. I got to work and found that I couldn't actually face staying there all day. Last night when I was at the gym, which my bf also goes to and when we got home he made a comment suggesting that I shouldn't be at the same gym as him. Since then I have just felt awful, I just don't know if it is a phase or what! I feel like I just want to crawl under my covers and die. It hurts me to say that because I know that my family would be devestated so that is not even a serious thought - but you get my drift.

I don't know what to do! I can't talk to my bf about how I feel because it all started with him and I don't want to talk to my friends of family because they are the type of people that will judge me and him and make me feel worse. I don't actually have anyone i can speak to and that is why i am writing this blog.

I just feel fat, ugly, useless, depressed and like I am not doing anything with my life and i am always going to be stuck in this rut!

I don't even know if anyone will read this or care but I guess it is my way of getting my feelings down and hopefully it will help me get over these bad feelings.