Broken Woman

I Just Can't Leave Well Alone From whoknows in Diary of a Dysfunctional Life (1 day old)

So last night went pretty much to plan once my madness was over - until 2.30am. I went to bed soon after X-Factor, about 10pm, cos I'd had a bad night on Friday and was very tired, so I must have g… more

Update From whoknows in Diary of a Dysfunctional Life (2 days old)

Well, it's too late to make the reservation now, so I sha;ll relax and eat chips :D… more

Trying to stay strong From whoknows in Diary of a Dysfunctional Life (2 days old)

It's actually been a pretty good week after Hallowe'en - which only got worse. I went to bed pretty early, and so woke up about 1am. I was reading when there was a knock at the door, at about 1.30… more

It's Hallowe'en From whoknows in Diary of a Dysfunctional Life (9 days old)

It's Halloween, and I'm alone with nowhere to go. Small Child is with his dad after I had him for a holiday for a week. I miss him so much. No trick or treating for me this year. I went out to the sho… more

OMG!!! From whoknows in Diary of a Dysfunctional Life (26 days old)

Just popped the TV on while I was writing. Have you SEEN that low fat cheese ad???!!!!!! The one with the mouse and all the mousetraps!!! My heart is still in my mouth, SOOOOO heart-stopping! YAY F… more

Acceptance From whoknows in Diary of a Dysfunctional Life (26 days old)

Put on the TV and there was news of a Bob Dylan Christmas album. 'Steven would have loved that,' I thought. Then I pulled up short - it was the first time that had happened. Always before when ther… more

Not Lonely, Just Alone From whoknows in Diary of a Dysfunctional Life (29 days old)

I've been keeping busy the last few weekends, but this weekend I didn't. I'd forgotten what it is like to be alone for a whole weekend. I'd forgotten the things I like about it. To wake up on Satur… more

Not Stalking - Facebook or Otherwise! From whoknows in Diary of a Dysfunctional Life (36 days old)

I was quite surprised that those who responded to my last post were urging me to go for it with B! I'd expected a damn good telling off for even thinking about it. I've not done anything - not because… more

Inappropriate From whoknows in Diary of a Dysfunctional Life (40 days old)

Remember B - newish qualified, into all the evidence-based practice, good-looking and skinny (good) but driven, intense and over-enthusiastic (bad), and obviously WAAAAY too young for me? He's a re… more

Cannibalism From whoknows in Diary of a Dysfunctional Life (59 days old)

Last night when I got back from work, Pope Benedict XVI (he's a fish) was stuck behind the filter. He often does this, so I went to free him and EURGGGH! He was dead. And not just dead, his tail and f… more

The Unbelievable Night From whoknows in Diary of a Dysfunctional Life (59 days old)

Ok, so I'm finally at a far enough distance to write about what happened. As you know, last thing was that Steve was being lovely, being really nice to me and making me wonder if maybe he really ha… more

"What's Lard?" From whoknows in Diary of a Dysfunctional Life (68 days old)

Was watching 'Bottom' with Small Child (yup, completely unsuitable, but Father Xmas brought him the boxed set), and they mentioned lard. 'Mummy, what's lard?' he asked. I explained it was fat. … more

A Little Story For Brokendownangel From whoknows in Diary of a Dysfunctional Life (69 days old)

A friend of mine once trekked to Everest base camp, she was on the medic staff for the Everest marathon. On the way she was enchanted by the water streams. How wonderful to be able to drink from a … more

My Life According to The Smiths From whoknows in Diary of a Dysfunctional Life (70 days old)

This is a meme I found at brokendownangel's: Using only song names from ONE ARTIST, answer the following questions. You can't use the band I used. Try not to repeat a song title. Repost as "my life… more

How...? From whoknows in Diary of a Dysfunctional Life (73 days old)

Went for my blood test (they have to regularly check my hormones for my weird hormone thing and thyroid) and my right elbow vein has tissued (I think it means collapsed in some way or something - gone… more

Just Good Friends From whoknows in Diary of a Dysfunctional Life (75 days old)

So I bet you are all thinking Steve's long gone? Well, not really. We are sort of, well, I suppose, friends. He's a better friend than he ever was a boyfriend. He sorted out the car battery. Wh… more

Funny How Things Turn Out.... From whoknows in Diary of a Dysfunctional Life (78 days old)

When I tore my marriage apart at the seams, A (along with many others) cut me out of her life and sided squarely with the Ex. This wasn't a problem, as he needed our mutual friends more than I did, an… more

One Day In Your Life From whoknows in Diary of a Dysfunctional Life (101 days old)

I'm sure everyone has 'their' Michael Jackson song. 'One Day In Your Life' is mine. It's one of those 'songs that got away - I absolutely adored it when it was out, but I was busy revising for my '… more

Bizarre Event From whoknows in Diary of a Dysfunctional Life (101 days old)

I am sitting here and can't quite believe what has happened this morning. Being my usual insomniac self, I was up about 4.30: wide awake and drinking tea, playing Sorority Life on Facebook and wonderi… more

What is the Universe Trying To Tell Me? From whoknows in Diary of a Dysfunctional Life (102 days old)

My car died today. I put the key in and it didn't even do that 'dutdutdutdutdutdutdutdutdut' thing. Just 'dutduuuu', then 'duuut', then 'du'. Walked Small Child to his playscheme, whilst phoning th… more

An Unprecedented Occurrence From whoknows in Diary of a Dysfunctional Life (103 days old)

I've not been in a good place, pre-occupied, trying to avoid the crap. Did have a lovely holiday in Tywyn though sunny, would you believe it. So today, in the effort not to think I totally cleaned … more

Gossiping From whoknows in Diary of a Dysfunctional Life (116 days old)

Last night I was on Facebook (I'm addicted to Sorority Life!) when a Simon, a friend of Steve's started chatting. We started off talking about Sorority Life (his gf, Kate, got me into it and has made … more

Clear Out From whoknows in Diary of a Dysfunctional Life (117 days old)

Small Child had a blue bag for unwanted clothes for charity. So I filled it with my 'fat' clothes - my clothes from after I had him, when my thyroid went tits up and I piled on the weight. I have no i… more

If Only Life Were a Story From whoknows in Diary of a Dysfunctional Life (120 days old)

Small Child clambers into my bed with his teddy. 'Is that the end then?' he says. 'The end of what?' 'The story of you and Steve.' 'I suppose it is.' 'It was a sad ending wasn't it, Mum… more

Back To School From whoknows in Diary of a Dysfunctional Life (122 days old)

So Small Child went back to school today - luckily it was a 'no uniform' day, so he was quite excited about that - but still ended up crying about his home learning book. So I took him early and sp… more

Feelings From whoknows in Diary of a Dysfunctional Life (123 days old)

All through today I've felt a bit weepy, for no real reason. The adventure playground place was closed for a function, so we went into the nearest big town instead, and visited the art gallery - A… more

Sports Day? No Way! From whoknows in Diary of a Dysfunctional Life (123 days old)

Small Child was up and in my bed at 6.30 in some distress because the sun was shining and it's Sports Day. He is always last. This is no exaggeration - his physical development is the bottom end o… more

Thursday Morning From whoknows in Diary of a Dysfunctional Life (123 days old)

I think I feel worse today than I did on Monday and Tuesday. I'm not anxious, but I'm angry with myself that I let Steve get to me. I feel sort of doomed. Looking back, I can see that none of this is … more

What Happened Tonight From whoknows in Diary of a Dysfunctional Life (124 days old)

Steve turned up on time, and initially at least looked to be quite normal. He was very apologetic, saying all the things that always win me around. I stayed calm, but it was getting to me. He was look… more

Preparation From whoknows in Diary of a Dysfunctional Life (124 days old)

I've no idea if Steve remembers he's supposed to be here, sober and drug-free, at 7.45. He phoned and texted several times last night until about half past midnight - I answered once each to say that … more